Saturday, February 25, 2012
Friday, February 24, 2012
Thursday, February 16, 2012
She makes me laugh....
One of my favorite things about being Kaitlyn's Mommy is she makes me laugh, every single day, no matter how I feel, no matter what is going on, at some point in the day she is going to make me laugh....just typing this makes me smile, she truly is a gift.
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
Friday, February 10, 2012
Ready for the weekend :o)
In between lunch with my cousin Missy, which was great getting to catch up with her, karate with K and studying for her spelling test and dinner with her Uncle Erick, I somehow managed to complete all of my homework, so I can enjoy the weekend.
K can't wait to go celebrate her report card at Newport Creamery, Crazy Vanilla here we come :o)
Have a great weekend all ;o)
K can't wait to go celebrate her report card at Newport Creamery, Crazy Vanilla here we come :o)
Have a great weekend all ;o)
Thursday, February 9, 2012
I miss him much more than simple words could ever say....
Sometimes you just ache for something that is just never going to be......I would give so much to be able to just trace the lines of his face one more time, to kiss him one last time....and tell him how very much I love him, now and always.....
Tuesday, February 7, 2012
Saturday, February 4, 2012
Thursday, February 2, 2012
Nana....
So my Nana is sick again, she has fluid in her lungs and the antibiotics aren't working, they give her 6 months or less.
Nana has had last rites, 4 times in the last 4 years. I joke that there will be an Apocalypse and the world will be survived by Nana and cockroaches.
It annoys me that most of my family has stopped visiting her, seriously out of her 9 living children and over 50 grand kids, there are 2 kids that see her regularly my mom and my aunt that she lives with and out of grand kids its me and my aunts kids; everyone says its too hard to see her like that...the thing is yeah its hard and out of 20 visits only 2 will she be aware of who I am, hell, of who she is, but those 2 visits make your month, the last time i saw her she laughed, it was like a gift, I had almost forgot how it sounded to hear her laugh....even now typing about it makes me want to cry it was so amazing....so yeah the other 18 times sucked but still she is my only grandmother left and it makes me sad that K won't remember her different than she is now, but I make K come with me every few visits, because sickness and death are part of life and family is everything.
I love that K is more grown up about how to handle Nana dying in theory than the adults, K says that it will be sad for us because we'll miss her but that she will be happy in Heaven with her kids and parents and husband....she's so cute she was like I hope she meets my other Grandma's in Heaven * my other Grandmother the Pearl she was named after and her fathers mother.....
I will miss Nan when she does finally let go, but she hasn't had quality of life for the last few years, and watching her fade away has been heartbreaking....I just wish the rest of the family would step up...
Nana has had last rites, 4 times in the last 4 years. I joke that there will be an Apocalypse and the world will be survived by Nana and cockroaches.
It annoys me that most of my family has stopped visiting her, seriously out of her 9 living children and over 50 grand kids, there are 2 kids that see her regularly my mom and my aunt that she lives with and out of grand kids its me and my aunts kids; everyone says its too hard to see her like that...the thing is yeah its hard and out of 20 visits only 2 will she be aware of who I am, hell, of who she is, but those 2 visits make your month, the last time i saw her she laughed, it was like a gift, I had almost forgot how it sounded to hear her laugh....even now typing about it makes me want to cry it was so amazing....so yeah the other 18 times sucked but still she is my only grandmother left and it makes me sad that K won't remember her different than she is now, but I make K come with me every few visits, because sickness and death are part of life and family is everything.
I love that K is more grown up about how to handle Nana dying in theory than the adults, K says that it will be sad for us because we'll miss her but that she will be happy in Heaven with her kids and parents and husband....she's so cute she was like I hope she meets my other Grandma's in Heaven * my other Grandmother the Pearl she was named after and her fathers mother.....
I will miss Nan when she does finally let go, but she hasn't had quality of life for the last few years, and watching her fade away has been heartbreaking....I just wish the rest of the family would step up...
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