So my Nana has been 10 days without food and 4 without fluids...people in Ethiopia starve to death, not your 89 year old grandmother in RI.... every day I go and see her and say goodbye, every morning I wake up and call hospice and find she somehow, made it through the night, every day they say, this is is and yet she defies them all....I pray that Kaitlyn and I have that strength within....
My mothers family is a mess, somehow there is no insurance and I found myself asking everyone in the family for donations, found myself making the arrangements, picking out caskets and prayer cards and buying clothes for her to be buried in and she's not even dead yet...half of my family grudgingly respects me and the other half hates my guts.
K is pissed at me because I've been distracted and away from home a bit making arrangements and rushing to hospice every time they call and say she's only got hours left.....I told her I have a responsibility lol she told me my responsibility is to her lol God I love that mouthy brat!
I'm doing my best, juggling being a single mom, losing my grandmother, trying to be there for my family, trying to make sure my Nana goes out with the dignity she deserves, trying to keep up with school and all K's actvities....I would really just love to lean on someone right now, but instead I will hold my head up and hope my Nan goes peacefully, and hope that everyone does the right thing and that they know I just want whats best for our family.
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