Nana....

So my Nana is sick again, she has fluid in her lungs and the antibiotics aren't working, they give her 6 months or less.

Nana has had last rites, 4 times in the last 4 years. I joke that there will be an Apocalypse and the world will be survived by Nana and cockroaches.

It annoys me that most of my family has stopped visiting her, seriously out of her 9 living children and over 50 grand kids, there are 2 kids that see her regularly my mom and my aunt that she lives with and out of grand kids its me and my aunts kids; everyone says its too hard to see her like that...the thing is yeah its hard and out of 20 visits only 2 will she be aware of who I am, hell, of who she is, but those 2 visits make your month, the last time i saw her she laughed, it was like a gift, I had almost forgot how it sounded to hear her laugh....even now typing about it makes me want to cry it was so amazing....so yeah the other 18 times sucked but still she is my only grandmother left and it makes me sad that K won't remember her different than she is now, but I make K come with me every few visits, because sickness and death are part of life and family is everything.

I love that K is more grown up about how to handle Nana dying in theory than the adults, K says that it will be sad for us because we'll miss her but that she will be happy in Heaven with her kids and parents and husband....she's so cute she was like I hope she meets my other Grandma's in Heaven * my other Grandmother the Pearl she was named after and her fathers mother.....

I will miss Nan when she does finally let go, but she hasn't had quality of life for the last few years, and watching her fade away has been heartbreaking....I just wish the rest of the family would step up...