TGIF!

I am feeling much more like myself today, what a rough few days with Kaitlyn being sick, it was nuts, she was throwing up, of course she wouldn't throw up in the toilet because people put there butts here, so she had to use a trash can, she had a fever, a migrane, she couldn't sleep, was just miserable, I had to keep changing her sheets and giving her baths, hell she got sick on the cat on the race to the bathroom and I had to give him a bath! lol the joys of parenthood!

So Kaitlyn isn't sick anymore, not that her father cared, I sent him a text just because I was exhausted and feeling like he should know that she's ill of course I didn't get a response because he clearly does not give a shit. Let me tell you who does care though: her teacher, the sensei at karate, my family, his family, the mail lady who K meets every day, my friends, like 75 friends on facebook who all wanted to know how she was, the woman at the bakery….pretty sad that everyone who heard she was sick was concerned and reached out other than her father. I don’t understand him, but then I’ve given up trying, and sadly I think she has too, she was making a picture and put the first letter of everyone’s name on it and asked me 'should I put D for Dad or B for Bear' and I told her that was up to her and she put the B, that spoke VOLUMES to me, but he would probably just not care because it doesn’t impact him. He probably only thinks of her when he sees his paycheck. He missing out on a beautiful, smart, wonderful, funny, sweet, fresh lol child, one that has so many of his better qualities, one that should make him proud, I feel so bad for him, he's missed so much and continues to miss things and I just will never understand why, he is a sad man.

ANYWAY, I miss my man lol I hate that he's so far away, I just want to curl up next to him and let him tell me everything is going to be ok, he says that but it loses the impact without the cuddle. I can't wait for him to come home to me.....how crazy that I am so head over heels in love with this man, I never thought I'd be in love again and now I am.... life, its never what you expect it to be...

Anyway, have a great weekend all!