Family knows who you were, but friends KNOW who you are ....

Its so funny I am held to certain standards by my family because in their heads I am the way I was when I was 16; a little hot headed, a little selfish, a little demanding, a lot rebellious, slightly judgemental... to name a few of the worst of my sweet 16ness not to say i haven't retained all of those negative things to a certain extent but thankfully they have lessened as other things have taken priority....thankfully my friends see me as I am today, good and bad and they make me feel like I don't have to answer for who I was, they just accept me for me and appreciate that and its all good.

Paul makes me feel like that lol and weirdly enough he's known me my entire life so he knows good and bad, he makes me smile just thinking about him, makes me laugh, lets me make my daughter a priority and encourages me in ways that well just makes me feel like anything is possible. I love going out with him, he collects people, I tell everyone its the French lol he just has this charm, and the accent doesn't hurt lol I have never said this about any man before but I feel like he is the one, THE ONE people, such a huge thing to say, to think....he just truly makes me happy, and I just want to be with him and my daughter and maybe just maybe we will eventually be a family and though that scares the ever loving shit out of me I am so excited to have it happen.

I hope someday my family catches up and ya know i am guilty of it as well I fall into old habits and treat them like I am big sis or cousin or whatever and they are whatever they were....family....hard to break the habits of yesterday but at least I try to catch myself and treat them as I want to be treated...do onto others and all that good stuff ;o)

have a great weekend all ;o)